About Me
As a child, I struggled with the concept of god. I often asked,
“If god made man, then who made god?”
“We don’t ask questions like that,” was the most frequent response.
I often objected, “Clearly, I do,” but I had to keep it to myself.
For six years, I explored the world’s religions. I participated in their rituals and read their sacred text. During that time, I experienced Christian worship, studied the Quran, chanted with Buddhist, and danced with Krishna.
Oh, the Krishnas are so fun.
I continue to attend silent meditations, and yoga retreats at Buddhist resorts. A few times a year, I chant and dance with the Krishna – and then talk with them at the feast.
My studies allowed me to meet interesting people, to make life-long friends. It provided an opportunity to explore. Yet I believe in humanity not gods. Man invented the gods; and we have no need of them. Who we are, who we can become is the responsibility of humans alone; without divine intervention.
A few years back, a friend said, “I feel so sorry for you.”
She went on to say, “Just imagine that a woman is abused by her husband and has no idea that life could be better,” she continued, “to me you are like that.”
I told her that the difference between me and that abused woman is that I explored, learned and experienced. I knew all the options and had no need of them.
At the end of the conversation she said,
“Well, maybe I am the abused woman. I only know how to be Catholic.”
Today, my friends are atheist, agnostic, pagan, Christian, Catholic, Buddhist, Mormon, Jewish, Krishna and finally, some are just confused.
Bottom line, I know why I believe as I do. I have not, and will not attempt to defend me.
If you are religious, or believe in gods that’s your right. I am not, and do not, and that’s my right.
-Apologus
